confession

The last several days I have been feeling very distant from God.  I hadn't heard His voice at all.  Today I sat down to talk to Him, and figure out what the problem was.  He told me that I have been seeking other things before Him.  That I have let worldly things become of more importance to me than Him, and that when I had been seeking Him the last few days it had only been with a partial heart, not the whole thing.  He told me that He has been right here, and speaking the whole time, but that I had let his voice be drowned out by seeking first to please myself.  I have been self-centered.  Concerned with what I would eat, when I would exercise, and some creative projects that I'm working on.  All things that are meaningless when done apart from Him.

Today I'm reminded of something that a former pastor used to say to us.  He would tell us that whatever the first 3 things that we talk about when we meet a new person are, that those are the things that are most important to us.... very convicting!  The last few days I have wasted almost all of my words on worldly things.  God has not been at the center of my heart, and it has shown!

And today, I am so grateful that I serve a Lord who is so faithful.  That when I legitimately turn to Him, He is there, with open arms.  I'm thankful that within minutes of when I sat down to reconnect with Him that I was hearing His voice again, and that He was prompting me with things to share with others.